A past sissy experience almost outing myself

Well now even if I don't post on reddit my account still gets banned. May need to get a VPN to circumvent it if I want to go back but for now I'll see how this goes. Here is an old post I made that may ring close to some of you, you may have felt the same some days <3

"I woke up today feeling extra pathetic and weak, I brought with me some normal skinny jeans and a shirt to go to the city but I was horny...so I changed into girl short shorts which showed my entire legs and pink wedge sandals with 3 inch heels, I was excited...people from my station who have seen me countless times would see me as a faggot, a gay boi, a sissy with painted toes and little short shorts waiting for the train. However, as I was in the parking lot I become too much of a pussy and changed back leaving the girly items in the car, that was close...but how much longer until I can’t resist it and I walk around in public...with people who know me and see me everyday in a dress or heels? Or even make up on my feminine face? I’m falling deeper as I cry and beg and try to scratch my way out of this hole but I’m too weak and small to escape"

Now this is one instance I almost went to the city crossdressed. I changed this time back to boy modding but after this I distinctly remember crossdressing past this and getting on the train to the city another day and having to walk until I reached the busy main area bathrooms where hundreds may have already saw me. On the train a woman who was checking tickets/opal did a double take looking me up and down as she noticed I was wearing tights and a womans top and short shorts. I was maybe 21-22 at the time. I have many many more stories of my downfall into emasculation and feminization. <3