Started Therapy ~

Haiii ~
So I've started therapy, it's not the first time I've done it. I started it for various reasons, but for the sissy stuff but something interesting and hot happened that I didn't intent.

I told my therapist who is a woman about my porn addiction, how it's affecting my sexuality and ability to stay/get hard and she was all supportive of fixing it and reasons why porn affects my ability but then I mentioned my sissy/trans fantasies and crossdressing and then she shifted into being supportive of me and my trans identity. She is not supporting me in my change of sexuality to men and wants to explore my identity and what "the total and complete destruction of my masculinity" looks like. My homework is exactly that for this week, to see what that fantasy looks like and write it out. 

She totally and most likely thinks im now a transexual despite my pleas for wanting to stay straight. I had such high hopes of maybe decreasing my wants for wanting to dress like a woman and be more of a hetero man but after one session she is pushing me more towards femininity and discovering myself as a blossoming gayboi whos trans. It was like a switch in her head turned as soon as she heard me talk about my fantasies and me crossdressing as she probably deals with closeted bois like me all the time. 

I can't wait for my next session ~