Callie's Journey

 It’s now no longer us talking about the issues what I started therapy for but full blown my homosexuality past experiences, my transgender identity and what I want for the future. Talking about my past where when I was 14-16 I purposely lost playing against my friend playing video games, letting whoever won do what they wanted to the loser,  and getting him to tickle my barefeet. I did this by winning once and tickling him and that gave him a taste of wanting to win, beating me easily and filling the future of every time I came over to his house, getting my socks stripped off me, him sitting on top of my legs and tickling my little feet as i buckled and bounced and giggled pathetically.  He would do it even if we weren’t playing video games, if I was in the way or if he simply wanted to, asking his mum to come in and watch him tickle my soft little soles and toes as I giggled and begged, his mum laughing too before going back into the other room. It was all so humiliatin...

Haiii ~ So I've started therapy, it's not the first time I've done it. I started it for various reasons, but for the sissy stuff but something interesting and hot happened that I didn't intent. I told my therapist who is a woman about my porn addiction, how it's affecting my sexuality and ability to stay/get hard and she was all supportive of fixing it and reasons why porn affects my ability but then I mentioned my sissy/trans fantasies and crossdressing and then she shifted into being supportive of me and my trans identity. She is not supporting me in my change of sexuality to men and wants to explore my identity and what "the total and complete destruction of my masculinity" looks like. My homework is exactly that for this week, to see what that fantasy looks like and write it out.  She totally and most likely thinks im now a transexual despite my pleas for wanting to stay straight. I had such high hopes of maybe decreasing my wants for wanting to dress ...

  I sat there defeated, humiliated and emasculated. I always thought I was a normal "straight" boy capable of protecting my girlfriend and standing up to my bullies but that all got destroyed the first second Ed put me in my place. Ed had been flirting with my girlfriend for a while and I finally got the courage to stand up to him. I'm 5'10, slim, never been in a fight and shy whereas Ed was 6'0, strong, filled with confidence and knew what he wanted, and what he wanted was to make sure I knew my place in life even if I had to be taken there kicking and screaming like a little girl. As soon as it started it ended, he had me over his lap, my pants and underwear pulled down and was spanking me swiftly and hard, tears soon came to my eyes and I was begging to be let go, then I was crying like a little baby. Kicking my legs as he hit my bottom again and again. *WHACK WHACK WHACK WHACK*  I was sobbing and crying and pathetically begging my girlfriend to help as she sto...

These two pics were taken the first time I fully crossdressed and went out in public, I was 18-19 at the time. I had met with a girl online who was genderfluid herself after I posted an ad on craigslist asking for a girl to help me be more connected with femininity as I had never done it before. Surprisingly she replied and we talked for a bit before meeting up. She was extremely helpful and sweet, brining make up and talking to me and answering any questions I had. We went back to her house and she did my make up, dressed me in the clothes I wanted to try, which was goth lolita and we then went out ~  As we walked around we past some boys and she embarrassingly told me they were checking me out which made me blush and told me many times at how the boys we walked by were looking at me and liking me. She must have thought I was gay and I didn't deny at the time, I only blushed. There was zero romantic or sexual attraction between us, I was just a girl-friend or a gay bestie to her. ...

Well now even if I don't post on reddit my account still gets banned. May need to get a VPN to circumvent it if I want to go back but for now I'll see how this goes. Here is an old post I made that may ring close to some of you, you may have felt the same some days <3 "I woke up today feeling extra pathetic and weak, I brought with me some normal skinny jeans and a shirt to go to the city but I was horny...so I changed into girl short shorts which showed my entire legs and pink wedge sandals with 3 inch heels, I was excited...people from my station who have seen me countless times would see me as a faggot, a gay boi, a sissy with painted toes and little short shorts waiting for the train. However, as I was in the parking lot I become too much of a pussy and changed back leaving the girly items in the car, that was close...but how much longer until I can’t resist it and I walk around in public...with people who know me and see me everyday in a dress or heels? Or even mak...

Welcome to the first post of my blog ~ <3   I hope to slowly build up this blog with pictures of my journey, pictures both past and new, to be able to talk to viewers of this blog but may need another site for chatting and also I want to start making captions, of pictures of myself and other sissies, I'm also very open to other people making captions of me as long as I get to see them!  <3